Last night, I barely slept because of the butterflies in my stoache flying uncontrollably that I woke up late compared to previous Saturday. I fell asleep after 4 in the morning that I didn’t want to get out of my bed. However, watching the YouTube about Urus let me start working and the first thing I did Today was cleaning my place.
As soon as I got busy and depressed by losing hope, I actually stopped taking care of my place. Trash was all over the place and dirty dishes became a tower. Starting and ending days in the deserted place made me more depressed and took the left hope away. Therefore, I turned on the YouTube to watch more about Urus and started doing the dishes, wiping the floor and taking all the trash away. I felt much more organized and my thought became clear.
Sometimes, it was difficult for me to trash things away, but after reading several self-help books, I tried to make some empty spaces for the other blessings in my life. After I completed the cleaning, I read a book and suddenly my dreams came into my heart to be real soon. I wrote the daily habit list and the dreams on my diary. All becomes clear and provides the new power and energy.
If you want to take action for a life-changing moment, I suggest cleaning your place first and setting up the habit list after writing your dream with an exact date that dreams come true. Never imagine your dreams without taking any action because it would put you in despair. However, dreaming with any small act would lead you to the next action that you could finally achieve all.
I’ve been through a difficult time because of COVID-19, which forced my workplace to shut down to prevent the contagious disease spreading over the country. Even though I understood the situation, it made me hopeless since I cannot do anything to change the situations. I just have to wait until I can go back to the workplace and make the proper money.
Until yesterday, I felt like I almost committed suucide. I imagined to kill myself to end all the difficulties going aroung me. Fortunately, I tried my best to gather up all yhe energies to move and endure for the next 100 days and rebuild my days.
I decided to dream again. I am a dreamer and always chase my dreams, but without knowing what to do and how to take action, all my dreams became just a mirage. For the last attempt before giving all up, I pulled all the dreams in my mind such as a house, a car, a gift to my parents, and so on.
Here is the list of my dreams:
Yellow Lamborghini Urus
Tower Palace in Do-gok, Seoul – a gift to my parents
SK Apelbaum in Samsung-dong, Seoul
Currently, those three wishes became so vivid. I want to sprint for the nexy hundred days and see what would happen in my life. I wish I can achieve all.
I started on my diet and some friends kept saying that it should be difficult to keep on a diet that I should give up or change my plan. I attempted to ignore the fake advice arising from the wrong jealousy. On the other side of my mind, jealousy is worth much more than cheap pity.
When I was young, I wanted everyone to love me that if anyone showed negative emotion toward me, I felt depressed and kept thinking about how I should be changed; however, after meeting a variety of people throughout the life, I realized that jealousy means I am doing something right with high possibility of success. Also I learned if some one feels pity for me, it is the worst situation I confront.
Being hated with jealousy is much better than being pitied.